The Best Birthday Gift Ever…

I have never really liked 'birthdays', considering i am generally all alone that day (which makes me feel all the more gloomy!) But i never even liked birthday parties (though i never mind the gifts :p) the entire fuss, faking a smile continuously, saying 'thank you' a dozen times in a single breath and then stupid rains spoiling everything!! (why is it that it ALWAYS rains on my birthday??) more or less birthdays were always a pain. The one thing which makes me look to forward to the D-day, is Archi's poem. Every year i receive a beautiful, lovely poem by my best friend which actually completes my day and makes it special for me!! :)

So this year I thought I'll share it with you guys...

So, neha, another year passed by

another birthday has come around

and here i was watching you grow

with amazement in my heart abound

yes, you have come a long long way

constantly changing with each moment

Like you were a diamond being polished

sparkling more with every cut's endurement

I saw you tread in dangerous paths

figuring out the right way to go

And as I watched from the shadows

It so pleased me to see you grow

I saw you make choices, so many

I saw you strong untill the end

wavering a bit in moments of doubt

and the wounds you on your own did tend

I watched you learn along the way

Learning to correct the mistakes

I saw you delve deeper in choppy waters

More confident, outgrowing the calm lakes

and there will be things and stuff

That we could never ever forget

Where do I begin, a difficult choice

But okay, let's begin with PEC

CHD is a beautiful place for sure

We'll go there someday backpacking

But counsellings I hate with all my soul

CHD or outside CHD? How discriminating!

I adore handsome sardars with all my soul

but college boys in black, how excruciating!

and well off, beautiful people in sc/st

again, CHD or outside CHD? how discriminating!

but the drive was worth it though

a beautiful stretch of images, our land

washed with rain, ripening grain

you wish there forever you could stand

then there are nights on the terrace

rainwashed and the moon up in bloom

and a seductress like you dancing along

you, food,and the night, ah no room for gloom

scooty's are a pleasure, though you are rash

and inception a very funny movie, no doubt

flirting with the coffee guy, and 800 ki chappalein

god, neha, report your mind for lost and found

I long for the day when I tell your kids

what an "amazing" person you'v been

an adept achaar thief, napkin hoarder

and other things between you and me

But more than that, I long for days

when we realize our hopes and dreams

actually executing our beautiful plans

and exploring our own hidden realms

drinking till we are insane

singing and then passing out

going biking, hiking, travelling

pushing on till nothing's left out

shopping like mad, buying a place

campaigning in dirt and rain

setting up my business, nurturing it

living through the blood and pain

I want to see you fall in love

to be behind you at your wedding

I want to be there for you

as you begin the journey of parenting

I hope I am there at every turn

At every phase and beginning

I will be there in each new chapter

silent...but watching

For at every stage i will see

you emerging from your silky cacoon

spreading your enormous wings

a butterfly relishing her boon

I dont know if i'v been good enough

but I really adore you for what you are

And always I just want to be there

with you, no matter where you are

And you know what, distance is an illusion

a physical obstacle, and nothing more

oppurtunities should be seized, so fly on

I will always be there, with a wide open door

And I promise you that I'll always try

that your dreams shall never ever die

I guess I'v said enough, well, time to go

loads of love, and happy birthday dodo

Archi, i don't know how to thank you for this but i hope you know that you are the best thing that could have ever happened to me and that you define the term 'soul sister' for me!!

Every time i read it, I have a big smile on my face throughout the poem (though i even laugh in between, thanks to '800 ki chapplein' ) But still i always end up crying! :')

I LOVE YOU

BIZZARE DREAMS

I am going to be 18 in a day ( :D) so I was just wondering how I spent all those years of mine…and I realized I had gathered some real beautiful memories which I loved to cherish, some decisions which I still regret about, some embarrassing moments which I laugh about, some daring stuff which I feel proud about…in short…so far so good!!

But somehow I was still left unsatisfied because I plan to completely freak out before I leave, there is still so much left to see, so much left to do…I am actually more than my needs!

So I made a list of all the things (in no particular order) I wanna do in the years which are left….

1 Go for scuba diving.

2 Pack a bag and randomly sit in a train without knowing where it is going.

3 Be completely drunk, so much so that I am left semi-conscious. (Though I’d prefer to carry a friend, just in case…)

4 Own a small house (though with huge gardens) in a country-side where I can spend my life after retirement.

5 Watch an opera in the Sydney opera house.

6 Passionately fall in love with somebody (so I can make him my crime partner!)

7 Get a tattoo made on my shoulder which reads…’Maqtub’ (urdu for destiny)…and I’d even like a tattoo anklet!!

8 Open a small school for girls, and teach them to live a life with self-respect and independence.

9 Work in a Broadway (even if I have just a small role)

10 Get my hair streaked with ‘purple’ colour.

11 Take my mom to a live concert or a play or a ballet (this is one of her dreams actually)

12 Go on a Eurail trip

Get my best friend's collection of poems published, adopt a bunch of kids, meet Shahrukh khan,just once…etc etc.etc…

I know my list of these ‘bizarre’ dreams is actually never-ending...I can carry on with it like forever :P. But as I said there is still so much to do, so much to experience…

Actually it does not really matter if I am able to fulfill each and every dream in my list because what is more important is that you dream and try to make your life worth living. Dreams are the future realities, strive to complete them. Enjoy and make the most of each and every moment you have. Believe in yourself. Let stories be told through you. Believe in what you can’t see but what you do know. Have faith ‘cause that’s the only way to capture all your fears.

And this birthday all I wish, is to keep my ‘hope’ alive and that my dreams survive! :)

Considering there are so many ‘weird’ dreams of mine which I intend to fulfill and will be posting about them too…this blog is gonna be way interesting…lol :P

So keep reading, keep dreaming and keep the ‘sunny side up’!!

Ciao till then…

The work goes on, the cause endures, the hope still lives and the dreams shall never die, shall never ever die!!!